I felt like I’m rushing all day.

I got up later than planned so I was catching up time I just didn’t have to spare. Then I got stuck in traffic. I went out with damp hair which I had braided last night. I had to put oil through it so that it wasn’t looking wild. I’m in a people queue everywhere I go today. They just wander slowly in front of you aimlessly. This isn’t a day trip … move! Some of us want to do what we have to do in the outside world and then get o it of them crazy post pandemic gradual opening. I swear that people have less sense now than they did before the pandemic. I liked some aspects of lockdown as I could get a people break more easily. People have literally become like ants scattered everywhere again. Why can’t we actually go back to a happy medium post pandemic? Things happen for a reason. Maybe we need to change as a whole. I’m getting stressed scabby skin because I’m not used to it yet. I think there is something preventing me from sleeping. Last night something odd happened. Well, for me, it’s not entirely odd but others probably don’t have certain things happen in their lives which I’ve grown up with and not known any difference. This has worried me a little though because it looked like what was on my bathroom side was chucked off into to the middle of the floor. That makes it more scary when there’s no way that it could have physically fallen off due to the fact that it was at the back behind everything. I heard something in the middle of the night last night but didn’t find the air freshener in the middle of the floor. It couldn’t have just dropped and bounced into that position. The cats aren’t allowed in there so they definitely weren’t responsible. I suppose it could have been more threatening. It could have been the glass perfume bottle I had on the side in there. I still don’t like it when things get thrown. That was definitely thrown by something which suggests it is aggressive. I haven’t been able to sleep at night so maybe something is hanging around. I can sleep no problem during the day. I’ve probably not been listening to whatever as I drank a few times this week due to watching the football etc. Alcohol blocks that side of me. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do for someone that is already passed over. It’s tough still being alive so I don’t want to be bugged by the spirit world. If they really want to reach me they know to do something in a dream etc.