The weather is crazy and I’ve felt like crap the whole day!

The rain is getting on my nerves. It’s just started tipping it down and apparently there’s more thunder on the way. I hope the wandering cat isn’t out in what has just come down. I hope my car isn’t sinking either as I haven’t moved it today. I meant to get up but spent the whole day mentally glued to my bed. I got up for breakfast and medication. I did prepare myself to get up but then thought screw it. I will definitely make the phones calls and pick up medication tomorrow. I just need a rest to stop feeling completely wiped out.

I couldn’t get back to sleep.

I actually managed to get to sleep straight away when I got to bed last night. I woke up at a stupid hour but then wasn’t able to get back to sleep. I hope that I can get a few more hours before getting up today. I’m still tired and I have a headache. The cat has just come to lay down next to me after being out all night. He doesn’t like daylight. I call him the vampire cat. He’s purring loudly so he must be comfortable.

I had to leave my car on the edge of the grass again because our car park was full by even 6pm last night. It is starting to get really irritating now. I literally only popped out for a few hours yesterday. I got home and literally every space was occupied again. We may as well make the grass part an extended car park at this rate.

I don’t know if this is a thing as you get older. I’m starting to feel more lost and left out in the cold. I never felt this way when I was younger. The realisation that one day I will be totally alone is quite daunting. I like my alone time but not to the point I am lonely. I will never be lonely while my cats are still alive. I just got jumped on by the other one while typing this entry. I don’t want to be in a relationship but ag the same time I also don’t want to be alone as I get older.