I’m finding life stuff really irritating at the moment. The small parts of life seem to bug me more. I had a conversation with someone I’ve known since I was a teenager tonight. I then realise that I wanted so much more by this point in my life. He still lives down south (he came… Read More Why does life have to be frustrating?

I just had a discussion with my own mother who outrightly told me not to express my opinion on things that affects me. Why is this so wrong? People do it every single day who are classes as normal and aren’t told to keep quiet. If I want to actually display the fact that I… Read More Family interactions don’t help BPD either.

I woke up today thinking I was feeling quite fat. I no longer have scales (fell out with those things a long time ago). I have really noticeable stretch marks which aren’t pleasant. I can use something to make them less visible but they don’t go away unless you get really skinny and the skin… Read More I feel like I’ve gained weight but I actually lost it…

I have reasons why I never wanted to be open that the system had labelled me with borderline personality disorder. Those labelled with BPD are seen as manipulative narcissistic individuals by others that have no understanding of why and how it manifests. The people that society should be concerned about are the genuinely horrible natured… Read More BPD doesn’t mean a person is bad… I will explain a few things.

I have lost count of the hours I’m awake during night time. I should be asleep because I was up all day with very little sleep the night before. I’ve laid here for hours but can’t sleep. I’m probably not typing in sentences properly. I’m too tired to use my brain to construct proper sentences… Read More Awake at a stupid hour x 100 plus nights in total. / we are living in a toxic world.

I did today on very little sleep. I even went for a walk this afternoon despite being tired. It’s made me feel a lot better so I’m not complaining. I look better than I normally do so maybe getting up when I’m tired isn’t such a bad idea. It’s nice to walk in the reasonable… Read More I’m so glad today is over.