I’ve got to the point where I’m no longer controlled by what happened with my first child. Well, parts of me always will be a bit angry and upset because there are some things you just don’t get over completely in life. I’d you did completely get over certain things there would be something wrong… Read More Attempting to move on.

I keep seeing the thing about if someone appears in your dreams repeatedly they want to see you or miss you. I’m quite doubtful that this is actually true. I’ve seen someone I used to know multiple times in my dreams over the past year. If they missed me then you’d assume they would make… Read More Things that are supposed to be a certain way but definitely isn’t.

I know that lots of younger people don’t believe us when we say that advocating for change is harder than it looks and takes over your entire life. I would give it all back if I could go back to being that 17 year old knowing what I knew now I’d not go near it.… Read More I do regret getting into this scene.

I’ve been completely knocked out the entire day. I feel like I’ve been drugged. I stayed in my pjs the whole day again. I can’t carry on like this … I had some entertaining dreams which made absolutely no sense but at least it was better than no dreams whatsoever. I woke up to the… Read More This tiredness is ridiculous.

I thought that I wasn’t going to be making it out today because I didn’t want to move when I woke up. I had a bath when I woke up and a bath this evening after I came back from a walk. I have put all clean sheets on my bed and cleaned/tidied the flat… Read More I managed to get up and out today.

I thought that after I’d slept for at least a few hours last night that this would make me feel better. That’s not happening. I’m still tired and don’t want to get up. I didn’t even have a bath yesterday. I’ve never been this bad even when I was going through the worse times of… Read More I’ve never experienced this before.

I feel mentally better for not even getting dressed today. I got up but didn’t bother changing out of pjs. I took it easy and didn’t do much. I needed this reset. Hopefully it won’t be raining tomorrow. It’s not supposed to be but our weather forecast isn’t always accurate. The cats are fed for… Read More I’m not convinced that the UK governments new initiative for disabled people will do enough…

I am reluctantly awake today. I’m not dressed yet but got up to fed cats, take medication and tidy a few bits to make my kitchen look less like things were just chucked everywhere. I haven’t got dressed yet but that’s the next thing I’m trying to make myself do. I’m beyond exhausted. I couldn’t… Read More I absolutely can’t stand being awake today.

I know that they go on about mental demons. But what if mental demons are actual evil energies which try to destroy our minds? I know that to non believers it will sound crazy. People will probably be thinking that I’ve watched too many episodes of ghost adventures on really. It’s not just the things… Read More Demons.

I didn’t want to get up today. I get to my mums and she thinks I’ve gained weight. I shouldn’t have as I haven’t drank alcohol for 4 days now. I’m never good enough even if I try. I can’t sleep… failed. I fall asleep during the day then end up late for dinner …… Read More Today hasn’t been any better.