I took a new photo of myself today. I guess my looks have disappeared forever. I’m not happy at this weight. I wish that I was a few stone lighter. I really hate my face too. There was no need to bitch me or be jealous as I have aged and gained weight too. I wasn’t immune to the progression of age. I may have had a reasonable figure and/or looks as a younger woman but now I’m just like those that bullied me for looking better. I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin. I have health problems which are causing me issues and my stressful life having a form of autism has taken my any looks that I had when I was younger.