So I’m a failure again :(

I got told that I’m basically a failure by my mother for spending money on game packages. Then I’m told that I should go out in the real world. That when things open I should volunteer. I don’t want to do that. The world has attacked me every single time I’ve put myself out there. Im done with going out there. I play games because it’s safe inside. There are no people and their stupid assumptions to ruin my life. I grew up wanting to sing, dance, perform, work in the media… but the trauma people left me with stopped all that. I now longer have the confidence to even be social. I don’t have many options in life because of how things have left me.