I must be mentally effected by what is going on in my life because my dreams are being influenced. I know that dreams you have when you get hot aren’t on the nice side. I had a dream last night where someone kicked the door down of my home (well where I rent). I definitely am feeling a little invaded. That’s no ones fault. That’s just how it is. I do also feel attacked but that is also no ones fault. That is due to my life experiences leaving trauma scars. I know that my reactions only annoy others. I don’t want to be annoying. I constantly annoy myself which is quite frustrating. I have had alcohol twice this week so the will power is slipping in that department. It’s better than it was but I need to ditch it completely due to unpleasant side effects. I can tell that I’ve drank alcohol. I did so well the first week. Then it got hot and others were enjoying alcohol in the sun. It seems like everyone is drinking alcohol when I try to quit it. That isn’t easy as I feel like I’m missing out. I know I’m not but it still feels that way. I cracked and I didn’t want to admit it.