Life stuff is influencing my dreams.

I must be mentally effected by what is going on in my life because my dreams are being influenced. I know that dreams you have when you get hot aren’t on the nice side. I had a dream last night where someone kicked the door down of my home (well where I rent). I definitely am feeling a little invaded. That’s no ones fault. That’s just how it is. I do also feel attacked but that is also no ones fault. That is due to my life experiences leaving trauma scars. I know that my reactions only annoy others. I don’t want to be annoying. I constantly annoy myself which is quite frustrating. I have had alcohol twice this week so the will power is slipping in that department. It’s better than it was but I need to ditch it completely due to unpleasant side effects. I can tell that I’ve drank alcohol. I did so well the first week. Then it got hot and others were enjoying alcohol in the sun. It seems like everyone is drinking alcohol when I try to quit it. That isn’t easy as I feel like I’m missing out. I know I’m not but it still feels that way. I cracked and I didn’t want to admit it.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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