Why am I randomly tearful during the night?

I feel like crying. I have no idea why. I just feel that way randomly at about half 2 in the morning. I got up for the toilet after watching a film on Netflix. I randomly smelt perfume when I got out of bed. It’s familiar but I know that I don’t wear it. I just can’t remember where I smelt it previously. I then get a bit freaked out when my cat is looking at something behind me. I’m really not in the mood for my gifts to start working right now. I’ve had enough of the living let alone the dead. I’m not a medium. I don’t want those abilities. They can find someone else is anything is here with me. I just want to sleep. I’m finding that hard due to my ankle playing up every time I get comfortable. I don’t want any sort of dream when I do fall asleep from anything that could be lingering around. I need a break. I would just like to be normal, average etc for a while. I need to get away from all the stuff that makes me stand out. I just want to blend in… not have messages in dreams, not have spirits strolling about in my dreams … not have random feelings and find out I was picking something up. It gets me into trouble. I don’t see it as a gift or anything good now.