I was officially diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome as a teenager but Borderline Personality Disorder has been suggested by professionals at points in my life. I refused to accept that and even walked out of appointments when I was getting certain attitudes by professionals at the time I got kicked out of university. Regardless what mental illness diagnosis I’m given…. no one will understand. They never do when it comes to mental illness. I’ve spoken to others with BPD and when their illness is at the worse they get treated horrendously. That condition gets you treated worse than having a form of Autism. I’m still going to lose my home because someone decided I was too much hassle to deal with. There’s been so much publicity about mental health but it’s still shameful to be actually mentally ill. I sort my mind out myself to the best of my ability due to the services attitudes being extremely disrespectful to me and that hurt so much that it caused damage permanently because they were like that toward me when I was at my lowest. Many of us that have struggled for years are totally put off getting help. We know the system. It’s trying to say that it has changed but until they actually have any understanding of the illnesses practically rather than out of a book. Psychiatrists and Psychologists don’t have mental illnesses. They don’t know what it’s like to be mentally ill. How is that even fair? We are judged by those that have just learnt out of textbooks. There are no individuals with mental illnesses that are the exact definition of whatever is written in a textbook. Trauma adds different dimensions to the symptoms of those illnesses. BPD diagnosis will be just as useless as the Autism label. I will still get treated like a disease etc.