I know that everyone assumes in open about most of my life on here but I’m not. I’m not hiding anything. I just don’t want to discuss certain things. I tell you all never to be ashamed of who you are … however, I am made to feel ashamed of parts of my life. This… Read More I’m not really an open book. / does anyone else go bloated after any exercise?
I’m not being horrible but I truly do not care about anything at the moment. I’m tired and feeling like a mess. I’m going to have to get up at some point today because I need to tidy up for the appointment I rearranged tomorrow. I can’t leave it in the current state it is… Read More I just don’t care right now.
I couldn’t sleep again. I may have slept too long during the day though. I went for a long walk so I should have been tired. I burnt off over 700 calories which should have worn me out. I had food when I got back because I was very hungry. I hadn’t eaten since the… Read More Another bad night.
I’ve constantly seen a car pass me while I’m walking for a few years. The guy only tried to give me a lift once. It’s that 555 ADR car I have mentioned previously. I see it too often for it to be a coincidence. I don’t mind if it’s a harmless stalker because he’s only… Read More I’m not sure if I should be concerned.
I didn’t watch the game today because I honestly thought that England would lose towards Germany. In my defence, since I’ve been alive they haven’t done great in football since I was born. I only checked it on my phone when I heard cheers outside. Maybe being English isn’t actually starting to be so bad… Read More I wasn’t being unsupportive… I really believed that England wouldn’t win today.
I was tired after struggling to sleep last night. I dropped off for a bit a few hours ago. I had a dream about the person I used to like. I technically banned her from my thoughts after everything that happened. That’s quite hard to do when you’re a person who naturally is able to… Read More I dropped off and had another dream which was quite dark.
I know that to others I seem annoying when I have to cancel last minute. I’m not well because the stress of the situation has got to me. The fact that I barely slept doesn’t help the way my brain has gone today. I just can’t today but I have rearranged it for later this… Read More I’m not going to be popular but I have to cancel today.
I never sleep the night before I have plans. The estate agent is coming around this afternoon to do photos etc. I slept too much yesterday to get any sleep during the night. Then my cat decides to bring a dead mouse in twice. I put it out the first time and he decided to… Read More I’ve had a very unsettled night.
This entry isn’t planned but I just heard something on the radio news that I need to comment on as someone who has been involved in having their child ripped away for adoption. They’re talking about the rise of unauthorised contact between birth parents and the adoptees who are still under 18 years old. This… Read More News related: unacceptable rise of unauthorised contact with birth parents.
I woke up feeling like I’d had no sleep. I eventually dropped off but it was after 5am. I’ve decided to take the option to live my life merely existing without being me. It’s peaceful and that is what I need. I don’t want trouble and if I insist on being me then that will… Read More I’m just going to stick to existing without being able to be me.