Slept … still tired … nothing new.

I woke up at a stupid hour because my cats were meowing to go outside. I fell asleep straight away last night. I even managed to shave yesterday so I have very smooth legs now. I’m sure that won’t last long. The hair grows back in a few weeks. I can still feel my neck albeit not as severe as before I went to bed last night. I have an irritating ulcer just inside my mouth. It feels extremely sore when I eat or drink. I guess it will help me lose weight if I can’t eat without it hurting for a few days. I bit my mouth in my sleep initially which is how it came up. I can even unconsciously injure myself. I’m even clumsy in my sleep! I hope I never sleep walk because I couldn’t be trusted not to cause some sort of damage to either my surroundings or myself.

I have a lot to do but so little enthusiasm/energy to get on with it. I’m not getting up this early if I don’t have to do so. I already had a conversation online this morning where someone implied I was lazy. I have no energy constantly. Laziness is not the same. I do a lot of things when I do happen to have good days. Depression saps me of all things positive. I make the most of the rare days where I don’t feel like a broken empty shell.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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