I know I’m not the first to turn to alcohol when they’ve suffered heart break and rejection. I definitely won’t be the last either. I was rejected quite early in my life so it left me more sensitive. I don’t know naturally instinctively that certain behaviours are becoming excessive. I was deep into my pain… Read More I hate to blame others for my addiction but certain things are interlinked.

I got up really late despite not feeling up to it. I’m on a walk because I’m fat and need to lose weight again. I’m going to have to cut out the alcohol to actually lose weight and I seriously don’t want to do that. I have a brain that constantly argues with itself. The… Read More Reluctantly up and on a walk.

I am tired because I couldn’t sleep all night (day sleeping is not a great idea). I have never felt this way before in my life. Is there a point you just think screw it? Living is harder than it has ever previously felt… ever. I feel like there is no point anymore. I have… Read More Life gets harder to do.