I didn’t get to my mothers today and now it seems like she’s fallen out with me. Depression isn’t a choice! Under normal circumstances I’d be at hers every weekend but right now I just can’t do it. It’s taken me all day to do things that need doing around here. I’m trying my best… Read More Depression is not a choice!
I have tried to sleep but I just can’t at the moment. I may have slept nearly the entire day yesterday but that was an accident. I was chilling while warming my clothes on the radiator. I decided that it would be much more comfortable in bed. I got too comfy and then the cats… Read More Sunday morning … not slept all night.
I only slept for a few hours today before waking up: I’m tired but went for a walk anyway. I didn’t go for one for the last week. I’ve started getting dry skin from constantly being in central heated environment. I can’t complain after I slept most of the day yesterday. I kept getting overheated… Read More Can’t even sleep during the day now.
I had insomnia again but that’s technically normal at the moment. I’ve been watching TikTok to keep myself occupied during the night. I don’t want to be a Karen but many of those videos and the responses to them shouldn’t be on there. People playing awful pranks on each other for views is rather low.… Read More Insomnia again but also worried!
I finally finished my TMA and submitted it for marking. I don’t think I’ve done well because I was struggling quite a bit to get even near the word count. In the end I just submitted my best attempt at answering the questions correctly. Thankfully it’s only 20% of my module grade. As long as… Read More I’ve had better times.
I’m waking up slowly. I didn’t sleep well due to insomnia. I don’t think I’m totally rebalanced after vaccination yet. I feel much better than I did but I still feel a little off. I also have that smell to me again which concerns me a little as my monthly still hasn’t come on yet.… Read More Sometimes it’s just this way.
I can’t live with the pain of things that have happened in my life any longer. I am too chicken to take my own life but I can feel my inner pain slowly killing me. I can no longer feel emotion. That is weird because I’m also in tears typing this entry. The memories of… Read More My story ends soon, very tired.
I was watching a program about murderers earlier. There wasn’t much else on… I’m not that morbid. I have noticed a worrying theme to these types of programmes. The murderers are always the odd balls, the helpful friendly types, the ones that have natural charm. That makes me feel potentially in danger of being accused… Read More Different doesn’t mean someone is potentially a killer or a danger.
I did make an effort today but insomnia is really making that difficult. I’m half up. I’m not quite up because not dressed in day clothes yet. The cats are fed so they’re happy for the next few hours. Mimi has just flicked her paw towards the direction of mister so they must have had… Read More I try … today it’s a struggle.
I think the side effects of the vaccine are starting to disappear. I ended up sleeping quite a lot. I woke up feeling back to normal. I have got mister to behave better by putting down a third litter tray. He’s calmed down a lot now. They have one each but an extra one seems… Read More I feel more normal now.