Mentally exhausted…

I didn’t know that this was an actual thing but that is the only way I can describe how I’m feeling right now. Maybe it’s just the type of day I’ve had. I came home to my own flat looking like a mess. It makes me tired just looking at it, let alone attempting to clean it all up when I get up in the morning. Life just takes its toll eventually. I feel like I’m clinging to the walls during waking hours. There are a lot of them when you’ve got insomnia. The pandemic is verging on the end at this moment in time. I’m finding it harder now than I have all the way through. I don’t want to go back to what we knew as a normal life. There was so much of that crap which was awful. What’s the point in all this if we are just going to go back to that? We went through a year of collective hell and lost so many people in the process. Don’t we owe it to those that do not have a future due to being victims of the virus? The status quo wasn’t working. The minority voices and those living in all kinds of poverty made themselves heard during lockdown. They were previously drowned out for many years due to the noise of every day normal non lockdown life. We can’t expect them to sit back down and shut up. Those of us who can naturally pick stuff up get frustrated with idiots in the world making things ten times worse. Those types don’t want things to change. Those types don’t care about anything or anyone but themselves. It’s tiring to be in a world where the majority are happy with the awful state of affairs. Some of us aren’t passive. We cannot sit by and not say or do anything. I have had to learn not to absorb things like a sponge otherwise I end up ill. Energy is real, surrounds us and can sometimes be toxic to those of us that are intuitive in that department. The person I liked who got me into a hell of a lot of trouble was what is known as an energy vampire. I used to feel something in their presence. As someone young, I wasn’t afraid of the rather draining aspects of their aura (energy field)… let’s face it, I was just as chaotic in my energy after the trauma is been through from a young age. These types are bad to let into your life. Trouble just follows them like a magnet. The older me just wants to chill out away from all the toxic energies. I absorb other peoples energies so easily. I literally would probably be able to feel any evil person or dodgy person by getting a headache in their presence or something similar. There are some individuals that make me feel sick just by being around them.