I’m sure that others agree who have had similar experiences to me. We all assume that a diagnosis will open up a supportive network of professionals and access to support services which look after our wellbeing rather than making our lives more stressful. This has never been the reality. There’s services out there but their structure and ways of doing things certainly aren’t fit for purpose when it comes to accommodating autistic people. I don’t often admit this due to the fact that no one cares enough to assist me to change things. I struggle with my autism quite a bit. I may act okay and confident. That’s a front, part of a mask I learnt to put on in public. I don’t see the point in showing my struggles if it’s become apparent over the years that no one gives a crap. I can’t get help for autism because every time I was open I ended up punished. I voiced my concerns to the council about services not helping and now they won’t give me anything. I’m seen as a problem due to voicing my issues. I don’t have many family and they don’t understand autism either. Other people get services paid for by the like cleaners for their homes just because they’re overweight. The state of my flat can really affect my functioning but every time a social worker has come out to access me they say there’s nothing that they can offer. I am no longer even eligible for a social worker despite having learning disabilities listed on my medical records. I fully get that no one can help in regard to relationships because my autism and lack of trust after my experiences make them virtually impossible to maintain. I just could do with a little assistance sometimes.