I can’t live with the pain of things that have happened in my life any longer. I am too chicken to take my own life but I can feel my inner pain slowly killing me. I can no longer feel emotion. That is weird because I’m also in tears typing this entry. The memories of the painful things that’s happened in my life eats away at me every single day. It makes me constantly tired. I’ve felt this coming for a long time but tried to keep bouncing back. This time I don’t think it’s going to be possible. Some things that happen a person can never get over. I’ve been like that since they took away my son for adoption. I was never broken by anything else that life threw at me. Living this painful, yet emotionally numb existence, is too much at this point.