I’m not ok. I hide my pain with alcohol every single day.

I act like I’m coping just fine. I’m verging on the very edge of becoming alcohol dependent. I think that I may be causing myself damage at this point. I feel extremely sick tonight. It’s like a hangover but ten times worse. I have a splitting headache. The itchiness of my skin is driving me crazy. I had yellow tinge to my skin earlier and went extremely bloated. I am drinking water to try to get rid of the headache feeling. I’ve pushed myself to the absolute limits with painkiller abuse previously. I was bound to start feeling the effects on my organs one day. I’ve constantly pushed my luck on multiple occasions. I hide my problems. I can’t any longer otherwise they’re probably going to kill me.

5 thoughts on “I’m not ok. I hide my pain with alcohol every single day.”

Mberepeterson

26/01/2021 at 20:43

I had a liver transplant due to alcohol addiction. I highly suggest you get a blood test to check your liver condition. There are people who care about you even if you don’t know it or in some cases know them in person.

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1. Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert
  
  27/01/2021 at 21:19
  
  It’s hard to get blood tests from gp.
  
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  1. Vometia
    
    30/01/2021 at 09:52
    
    It shouldn’t be. If your GP makes it hard to get blood tests, you need a better GP.
    
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  2. Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert
    
    30/01/2021 at 11:44
    
    I have to wait a fortnight to get a phone consultation with gp
    
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  3. Vometia
    
    30/01/2021 at 12:20
    
    Oh, yeah, waiting for ages is normal. But you shouldn’t be refused blood tests altogether. Anyway, if you’re concerned then ask for liver function tests. Tell them to do γGT as well (gamma gl… er, something-or-other) as they don’t normally do that one when you ask. It’s unlikely there’s going to be any problem but it’s probably sensible to get you a yearly MoT regardless.
    
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