I have my smear test in a few hours. I’ve never been as terrified as I currently am. I don’t tend to get anxious in relation to this sort of thing. I’ve just got to the point where I’m absolutely fed up of everything. I don’t want to be around other people let alone touches for a test. I would have cancelled this morning if the appointment system wasn’t currently disabled for online access at the gp surgery. The wearing a mask everywhere causes me added anxiety. I feel claustrophobic when already anxious about things. I didn’t mind wearing one at first but it has turned out to cause me sensory issues. I get a sweaty face which causes me to feel overwhelmed. I know it sounds pathetic but it’s a thing. I have tried to call the surgery to cancel appointment but they aren’t picking up the phone. I know that I can’t do it today.