Day: October 28, 2020

I have my bed being delivered tomorrow and I’m already anxious. I have been anxious about it for a few days. Pre anxiety is definitely a thing. It’s a nagging feeling, unlike full blown anxiety. Pre anxiety makes insomnia worse and has made me feel on edge for days prior to any plans. I’ve also obsessively cleaned myself as well as the flat over the last couple of days. I’ve done more ironing then I have in a long time. That is how my anxiety affects me. I never relax in preparation for plans.

I’ve also just broken up a cat fight between mister and the stray cat (Dave/Thor) while typing this entry. Mister now isn’t allowed out after I heard both of them inside they were that loud. Tom cats are very territorial. They tolerate each other unless the other cat gets too close to the window. I’ve taken the fire alarm down because the beep was making me more stressed. I can’t replace the battery in it because it’s a one use only type. The landlord said he would drop another one off in a few days. Luckily it’s shut up now I’ve taken it down but if it starts beeping in the middle of the night it’s going on the draw where I can’t hear it.

I can’t sleep again. Insomnia is one of those irritating issues that doesn’t go away easily. The battery in the smoke alarm needs changing so that beeping isn’t helping matters. It doesn’t do it all the time but has decided to remind me every few minutes at a stupid hour. I need to get it down to see how to change its battery. I’m not doing it at this hour. It can moan at me all it likes but I won’t be sorting it until daylight hours. The thing has been moaning at me on and off for weeks, a few more hours won’t matter. I don’t feel well tonight. I woke up with a migraine yesterday. That’s gone now. However, then I decided to foolishly have something I’d frozen which was technically out of date. I thought it wouldn’t matter due to not being meat based. I was wrong. I now have an uncomfortable stomach and felt sick earlier. I’m sure I will be fine as I have guts of steel. I may suffer a little from dodgy food but it never makes me properly ill. I’m never doing that again. I put food that doesn’t get used in the freezer so that it doesn’t get wasted. It’s normally ok if it’s not left longer than a month, this food had been in there slightly longer. I’m hoping that I can at least get a few hours sleep soon.