I just can’t…

The lack of sleep is starting to affect me quite badly. I’m exhausted from not being able to sleep. I’m stressed out during the night when I can’t sleep. I constantly feel like every day even the normal tasks are like climbing a mountain. I just want to feel normal again. I haven’t felt like that for a long time though. How do I feel better when I don’t sleep? It just isn’t possible. I’m just beyond tired at this point. I have worn myself down too much over a long period of time. I would love to just get away. I feel trapped again. I should have gone for a walk today. I didn’t earlier due to the rain being so heavy. I slept most of the day due to not sleeping at all last night. I was feeling sick all night which didn’t help. I ended up listening to music all night. I’m trying not to feel depressed but I still hate waking up every day. I’m not suicidal, but I would rather be dead. The effort of daily life is just too much most of the time.