I can’t settle here in this area mentally. There’s too many awful memories here. Right from school to my sons adoption. I was a fool to think that I could ‘make it work’. I simply cannot deal with the memories here. I never wanted to return. I merely returned under duress as it was a… Read More I made a huge mistake coming back to this area.

I went over my mothers to get the length of my trousers altered. I started off with a migraine and a cold this morning. I have a cold cup on my forehead as this takes away my headache. I get told that I’m getting a fat belly and I need to lose weight. Thanks. I… Read More I’m not well… comments don’t help me feel better.

The fact that I cannot sleep at night is starting to stress me out a lot. I find it hard to get things done during the day due to feeling exhausted. I wish that I could just sleep normal hours rather than waking up every few hours at night. I have a migraine due to… Read More Sleep is such a difficult task.

I’ve had people ask me why I live in a certain way. I am going to describe how trauma from the past works. Regardless if some of the actions in the past wasn’t my fault… I still blame myself. I started to intentionally deprive myself of positive things in life a long time ago. I… Read More This is how I see my life.

I went for a walk tonight after getting a few bits and pieces from the shop. I fully recommend hanging bags on your arms as they make handy substitute arm-strengthening weights. I have more toned arms since I’ve been carrying things around with me on my recent walks. I regret wearing my wedges, which I… Read More One of those days… but I’m fine!

I do not condone anything illegal. Others should definitely not verge on illegal actions unless necessary. I’m hoping that I do not have to go down that road myself. The legal routes of getting my son back one way or the other might not work. The chances are quite slim due to the fact that… Read More I will be getting my son back one way or the other.

I just got back from a long walk. I did get slightly wet because a heavy shower started when I was nearly home. I had a waterproof on so I was prepared to potentially get caught in a shower. I also think that I fixed my monthly issues. I normally cannot go for a walk… Read More I think that I fixed my issues!

I don’t know how but sometimes I manage to visit my dad while asleep. I don’t even plan to do so. I just have a random dream and he appears. He normally appears to me in my own environment. Last time it was my home. This time we were in the garden of terraced looking… Read More Visited my dad in a dream.

I try to do things for other people but I still don’t feel like I’m actually appreciated. I do all those things so that people don’t look at me as autistic or inferior to them. I am mostly not happy because it takes me a huge amount of effort to do things due to my… Read More Sometimes making an effort isn’t worth the hassle.

I have really had enough of the “new normal” due to the constant swings and roundabouts of restrictions. I probably won’t be the only one that feels they’ll go mad by the time we have been through this: another six months. I’m one of the people who has been following the regulations. Why should we… Read More I can’t be the only person feeling totally fed up of the ‘new normal’!