I used to be the opposite of what I seem to have become. I’m always too tired to exercise which has materialised into no motivation. Exercise seems harder than it used to be when I carried less weight. I see lots of clothes that I cannot fit into and that is depressing. I never had a weight issue previously because I could exercise the pounds back off. I can’t any longer because I’m not the same person now. I used to tolerate exercise alongside being naturally self motivated. I always had the inner ability to push myself. I seem to have lost that relentless resilience as I reach my mid 30s. I find my weight gain depressing. I would love to slim back down. I just have the mindset that goes never mind I cannot be bothered so there’s no point working to change my body size. I don’t even want to be this way. I just struggle to be enthusiastic about anything nowadays.
It’s difficult to be bothered when mentally every day functioning feels like climbing a mountain at the moment. I enjoy food and alcohol too much to ever be slim again so why even try? It’s a common fact that you cannot consume alcohol most evenings and be able to lose weight. I like my lifestyle more than exercise.