Tough night …

I have sleep issues on a normal night. The heat last night was beyond ridiculous though. I dropped off for barely an hour before waking up sweating again. I couldn’t settle for hours. We didn’t even have the thunderstorms here. It was lovely and quiet. The heat was just disturbing. I don’t know if I will get back to sleep as it’s nearly 6am now. I’m not in the best place mentally at the moment due to being overwhelmed. I just don’t want to do much. I have no desire or passion towards anything in life at the moment. I used to be ambitious but now I just can’t be bothered. I’m always too tired even when I do manage to sleep. I just haven’t got the enthusiasm to be interested in life. I miss the old me when I used to be determined to reach my goals… even if it got on everyone else’s nerves. I just seem to have given up on trying to go places anymore.

The thunder sounds like it’s finally got here. The rumbles have started which has caused one of my cats to scarper under the bed. I don’t particularly like the noise either. I can smell thunder in the air. Mister was chasing one of those beetles that come out when it’s thunder weather.