County/city council merger. I have felt exhausted again.

I’m feeling slightly better today but I have slept a lot and kept myself topped up with caffeinated drinks. I got up early for my food shop delivery. Then I had the best intentions to stay up. I tried for a few hours until I felt like I needed a nap. I managed to wash and put a conditioning treatment on my hair. I had to do that task because my scalp was getting itchy with a yucky pulling feeling due to going a few days passed it’s weekly wash. I find that a huge task as I have masses of thick hair. I have to put treatment on it once a week as it’s prone to going frizzy. I’m hoping that the extra sleep will stop me feeling exhausted enough to get other things done. I couldn’t sleep last night as I knew that I had to be up quite early.

The topic of the city and county councils merging has recently come up again. I support the plan but I’m aware that most locals are against it. I agree that this plan could potentially be abused by those in charge of the combined councils. Despite that potential problem, I still think that combining the city of Leicester and Leicestershire county’s councils would be helpful. Leicestershire as a council has always received the lowest amount of funding in the entire country. Leicester city council gets more funding than us and they have a smaller area to serve. If we combined all the council budgets together then it will be able to be more fairly spread between the county and city. The vulnerable within the county have suffered due to our lack of funding. The city have much more resources than us. We need those resources over in the county. The services we do have over in the county aren’t properly funded. Our schools in the county are constantly failing those with special educational needs. Mental health provision isn’t properly funded here. Those that have managed to access the help have been to the resources in the city. There is nothing useful within our side of the county. I can’t speak for the other side because I’m not a resident there. I just think that people should take into consideration that the merger idea isn’t something that should just be dismissed without exploring how the reality would be in the event that the merge went ahead.

Uncomfortable, can’t sleep and overwhelmed.

I’m not even overwhelmed due to things I have on. Although I will need to be up early tomorrow. I’m sensory overwhelmed by my allergies, the things that I need to do around the flat to make it feel less grubby, and my hair is feeling tight on my scalp due to needing its weekly wash. The state of my eyebrows are starting to bug me. Covid 19 restrictions mean that beauty salons cannot even wax them yet. I totally understand about threading being risky because they have to be extremely close while also holding it with their mouths at some points. However, waxing can be done at a safe distance with the beautician wearing a visor and the client wearing a mask. They’re allowed to trim men’s beards which they cannot do with clients wearing a mask. Eyelash extensions are too risky because they work so close to your eyes. I don’t see how waxing eyebrows would be too risky though. It’s also kind of sexist when you consider that men can have their beards tidied up. Women rely on eyebrows to make them look tidy.

Even having a bath seemed like a sensory nightmare. I was painfully aware of the water pressure on my skin. I’m not normally like that. I’m just going to blame hormones because that time of the month is approaching and I’m just hoping it’s not going to repeat it’s performance from last month. I have plans on one of those dates that it’s visiting and I can’t use the hair salons toilet due to restrictions if it decides to flood. I need a trim after the three month lockdown. I spend hours in there when I have my highlights done and normally use the toilet a few time’s due to the fact that it takes about 4 hours. I haven’t got plans to have it coloured for a while. However, these restrictions could be around for many months. They definitely will be if the virus starts spreading again. These things may be health and safety but we cannot do certain requirements on a long term basis. There are disabled people that need access to toilets when they are using a public area. They aren’t able to wait until they get home or they might end up in a mess. I have no issue with wearing a mask because that’s a reasonable request. The reality of this year has been crazier than some of my dreams that I have when I’m stressed. Lockdown didn’t get to me. I’m finding the reopening of everywhere and the various restrictions quite challenging. I see how impractical some of them are going to be long term for those of us who have various disabilities. There is already a backlog of routine things we need due to our needs that will take months to get sorted. They literally forgot about some groups of disabled people due to the resources being prioritised in regards to controlling the virus outbreak. Until the virus has gone completely then resources won’t be diverted back to the other services.