Having an early night… hopefully without being disturbed by anything.

I’m off for an early night. I need sleep. I have a headache. I took a painkiller and now I’m going to attempt sleep. I will not be checking my phone tonight. I also request that no one comes to my window in the middle of the night either. I need proper sleep. I literally will never be able to catch up on the sleep that I’ve missed over many years of insomnia. I just need a few more hours during the night. I probably only get two hours of consistent sleep per day because I frequently wake up. I will feel better if I just get a few more hours.

Sunny weather fails….

I have some spare time as standing in a queue at the supermarket as it isn’t too long (in comparison to a few weeks ago it is short). I walked from home to here and walking back. I have my really ugly fatty legs out. They aren’t as fatty as they can get but still I feel self conscious. I want some colour on my legs. The only way to do that is either expose them or fake it. I’m not very skilled with fake tan. However I put it on, even with gloves, I seem to end up with brown fingers. I already did a huge mistake earlier. I shaved my legs before I put on my shorts, then put coconut oil to take off the dry flakey stuff. I just realised that the stickiness has attracted dirt from where I had been walking. I only realised after I went to scratch an itch on the back of my leg. It did seem like a good idea until that happened.

I also got woken up again last night at a stupid hour. I am now behind with everything again. I was just about to go to sleep. I may have acted unfriendly. It it was 3 to 4 am in the morning! I don’t want to get involved. I want a peaceful life! I don’t sleep well anyway. If anything puts me on edge I know that I’m not going to be able to sleep. I’m not in the best frame of mind myself when I haven’t slept a lot.