It’s all so quiet…

Considering that we are locked down, online life has been rather quiet. You’d think that it would be more busy but everyone seems to have better things to do. The stats of this blog has been extremely low today. I think that we are all getting a bit bored in lockdown now. I had writers block most of the time this evening. I’m struggling even to write at the moment. The scarf that I’m knitting is getting longer. I think I may have numbed my mind too much. At least I don’t have a streaming nose today. That only happens when I go outside at the moment. I went to get a few bits from the local shop earlier (not actually going to the bigger supermarkets most of the time during lockdown) and by the time I got back my nose had decided to start playing up. I even had allergies inside yesterday. That yellow stuff is out in the fields which surround where I live. I know that those set off my hay fever. Plus, we have blossom trees outside our block of flats. The blossom is flowering so there is bound to be high pollen levels wafting from them. I also keep sneezing so there must be something flowering near where I live that is causing my hay fever. Is it possible to not even feel down or happy? I am sure that I feel that way right now. I just have no feelings either positive or negative. It is like I’m just existing in an indifferent mist of what is life right now. I need to sleep at a decent time tonight because someone is coming to service the boiler. I cannot get up at 3pm for just one day. I have an odd sleep/wake pattern but tomorrow I will have to change it. I’m hoping that I get to sleep because sometimes I just can’t sleep when I know that I have to get up by a certain time. It’s not just about being up. I need to make sure that I’m dressed and awake properly. I’m already way behind a lot of things I’ve meant to have done. I just haven’t felt like moving much. I don’t even go for a daily walk any longer. I get hay fever and a headache every time I go outside since the weather got nicer. This week hasn’t been great in general because I’ve felt like crap most of the time. I’m glad that I finally got rid of my migraine.