What is sleep? I cannot remember.

I couldn’t get to sleep during the night. I briefly dropped off but woke up after only an hour. I’m starting to get affected by lack of proper sleep. I am also exhausted after 3 weeks of continuous disturbed sleep. I’m just unsettled more than normal because life is just odd right now. I feel like I’m clinging to the little energy I have and being unable to function. I naturally feel things which I’m trying to filter out but it’s not that easy. I don’t think that I will be able to sleep properly. I never feel like I’ve actually slept because all my sleep is inconsistent. I woke up with a sore throat. I don’t know whether that is lack of sleep related. I have a runny nose due to hay fever anyway. The warm sunny weather is welcome but the allergies that come with that particular season aren’t very pleasant. I need a walk as I’m starting look quite pale. I don’t go out every day to exercise because I am quite tired. I have bits like cat food food delivered too which takes off the trips to the supermarket. I am trying my best but it feels like it will be this way for a long time. I’m hoping that I can avoid going completely mad waiting for the lockdown to be lifted. I don’t even feel like social interaction. The constant tiredness is making me want to be on my own. Social interaction, even via online, is tiring for me. I haven’t got the spare energy built up  to be social in any form. I need this time as a break. It’s peaceful and the every day outside world pressures which were there before the lockdown.