I’m cold, tired and tearful.

I disinfected my door handles, light switches and  laptop earlier. I then did vacuuming for a few hours because the hair and dust was so bad. I had to keep emptying the dust collector because it got packed so quickly. It’s now obvious how crap my previous vacuum cleaner had become as it slowly continued to malfunction. I ended up with a bag full of dust and hair. I can see why my allergies were quite troublesome recently. I knew that it got quite bad due to previous vacuum going wrong. The amount I got up was still a shock. I had the most annoying running nose during that task.

The university assignment is finished so I can finally have a rest today. I couldn’t sleep well last night. I just lay awake for hours. I’m probably just tearful today due to tiredness. I also can’t be the only one that is getting upset about what is happening regarding the virus spreading. I live a reasonably isolated life anyway but even I am struggling with what is happening. I feel things. I just know things …. this aspect of myself really is problematic right now. It’s ok when everyone is busy living their lives. When people stop their minds are more transparent to those of us with the gift. It’s like being a sponge for others random thoughts / feelings that they unknowingly transmit at these times. I can feel the sadness, fear and lots of other negative emotions stemming from our current predicament. I try to stay positive by thinking that every day that passes leads to a time where we will finally have some form of normality back and the virus will disappear. I can’t see an end to this situation for at least 6 months. We aren’t designed to stay in a confined space for weeks or maybe months. I can’t even do that and I’m autistic. I’m going to struggle after a few weeks. I am physically disconnected with the outside world but I’m able to pick up others thoughts and feelings like I’m plugged into a network. I don’t even know who I’m picking them up from but it’s definitely multiple people, it could be thousands. This is exactly why I stopped doing readings. I don’t mind using the gift to help others but it’s draining and sometimes never gives me any rest. I can’t switch it off completely because I still have dreams at night. I find it exhausting when it doesn’t seem to switch off. I found that the less I used that side of me, the less it bugged me when I wasn’t doing readings. We all  need to rest. I need to rest at the moment but too many thoughts and feelings are flooding me from others due to this virus outbreak. I can’t exactly tell all the sources to stop projecting things to those of us who are able to pick things up. People don’t even know they’re doing it when stress and emotions are running high.

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