I’ve just noticed the date is Friday 13th. I don’t like the date but I’m not as superstitious as I used to be. Anyway, I own a black cat, they’re supposed to counteract any bad luck. I don’t know how true that may be… however, I am going to believe it. I will be going out today because I need my eyebrows waxed. I have booked my appointment for tomorrow afternoon. It can’t be worse than today when I popped the supermarket and seemed to see lots of people I knew in there. That isn’t always a good thing because I was trying to keep a low profile. That is important when you run a blog. I am aware that half of the local area has potentially read the blog.
I don’t look my best in person at the moment. I’ve not been out a lot in months. I’m not confident due to how I’m affected by things that have happened. I am getting back to normal slowly but I get very nervous around other people. I think that I may have gone down several aisles of the supermarket yesterday to avoid various people who I knew. I do want to be sociable but every single time I’ve let my guard down I ended up getting hurt or mistreated. That makes me never want to be friendly or socialise ever again. Avoiding people feels safer to me after all that I’ve been through. I literally am fearful of others and I don’t want to be… but it’s how I naturally am right now.
Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert Blog 