I received a comment on a previous blog post earlier. I did reply but I do feel that I should expand on the topic in a separate post. The treatment options I was given in 2015 after I got permanently excluded from university was quite inappropriate and upsetting for me. I’m not a snowflake type of person. I can take quite a lot before I’ve had enough. I was only given the option of being assessed by the local forensic mental health professionals. I went to two out of three assessment appointments. I saw a Psychologist who didn’t understand autism. I could tell by her attitude. She told me to concentrate on things to answer questions. I find that extremely hard. I ended up crying begging for help only to be told that I was being aggressive and accused me of shouting at her but that wasn’t what happened. I walked out of the appointment in floods of tears when I had seen her a few times and ended up distressed due to her attitude. I said that I wouldn’t go back without someone going with me; but I was informed that I wouldn’t be seen unless I was on my own during appointments.
Therefore my decision was to establish that this assessment wasn’t appropriate for me. I didn’t feel comfortable attending appointments with any of that team. Their ignorance of autism was quite apparent by things that were said to me. I was told that it had been put down as being non compliant on my medical notes. There was no reason listed as to why I had said no to the last set of appointments. Frankly, I was treated with more compassion by the prison staff when I ended up briefly in there for breaking the restraining order repeatedly.
I probably do have a mental health condition after my experiences. However, I do not trust the current system for diagnosing and treating mental illness. I go to the GP, get referred to the local mental health team and they basically refuse to see me. The only place I ever get directed towards is the forensic mental health services. I would rather struggle horrendously on my worse days than be treated / spoken to in the disrespectful way I was on the previous occasion when I tried to access help services. The support service and social workers were useless at tackling the discriminatory attitudes. I raised my concerns and subsequently got told my services were withdrawn. I haven’t had any services for probably 3 years now. I was literally dropped by those supposed to be supporting me and a year later ended up in prison due to lack of support.