I’m not sure that I can do my law degree. I don’t want to fail because I feel like I’m letting people down who need me to get into a position where I can change things after the completion of my degree. It’s harder than I expected. I may find it easier when I’ve finished the first introductory year. I don’t feel confident after my previous tutor marked assignment got only 52%. The previous one I got was over 70%. I have two of those assignments to go until the end of the module. It doesn’t sound much until you realise how much detail is required. I was never educated properly. I don’t have the ability to write at undergraduate level to the standards preferred. This is the easiest module. I won’t meet the grades for the future ones if I’m struggling on this level. I’m also feeling quite depressed in recent weeks. I just keep thinking about what my life would have been like if my son hadn’t been taken for adoption. I can’t help thinking that my reality would be much better. I wouldn’t have been seriously affected by what happened which means I would have never got into trouble. I probably wouldn’t have attempted university so that means o wouldn’t have met the person that was part of that trouble. I wish that I could go back and make sure I kept my son resulting in all that being erased. I would have been a lot better off if I’d never been near dmu (especially in light of what came out last year) and also never met her. If my life had taken a different path in the circumstances that my son wasn’t forcibly adopted, things would now be completely different. Instead, I made links and associations that will haunt me for the rest of my life. That is why I don’t go out anymore. I’m traumatised to the point where I can’t even get a proper nights sleep without a nightmare or just waking up. I now truly believe that evil energy surrounds certain people and places. I’m never going to stop feeling those things because I’m able to naturally pick up stuff.