I’m aware that this is hours early but I don’t think that I will be staying awake to post at midnight. I am already in my Onesie and planning to go to bed probably two hours before the new year arrives. I may not necessarily be asleep. I will reply to new year messages if… Read More Happy New Year — 2020 here we come!

I have done half my housework but I’m having a 5 minute break with the cat who is asleep next to me on the sofa. They both fell asleep while I was doing things. I have done the huge task which is my mass of thick hair washing and conditioning session. In comparison to all… Read More Half of my new year housework done.

I can still feel my migraine but I can function again. I desperately need to get some cleaning done tomorrow because everything looks grubby. I also had to improvise when it came to what I was wearing to bed. I had only managed to put a load of washing on today which included all my… Read More Disorganised after being ill.

I has been ill all day with the worst migraine I’ve had in a while. I had to go back to bed every time I got up to attempt to eat and drink. I was only able to have a sandwich and only able to drink water most of the day. I have pain in… Read More Today has been awful 😦

I got up twice today. Once this morning and this afternoon. I was woken up by a Jehovah’s Witness this morning. I answered it because I was expecting post that might need my signature. I was pleasant to the man that was at my door but didn’t let him go on for a long time.… Read More Today has felt short but also long… let me explain why.

I have reached that stage where I do not care enough to have any hope for the future. I’m extremely exhausted constantly and everything seems to randomly go wrong just when things were getting better. I feel like I’m fighting a brick wall most of the time. I barely have any motivation to get out… Read More I totally give up!

I am totally fed up with acting like I’m ‘okay’. I haven’t been okay for a long time since going through losing my son to ‘forced’ adoption. I have tried to be okay but I can’t pretend to be happy when I’m actually still broken inside. I thought that in time I wouldn’t be so… Read More I’m not okay, you don’t just ‘get over’ certain things.

I knew that Christmas was going to be an effort. I’m absolutely exhausted to the point where I am just going to sleep in my clothes tonight. I will just have a bath in the morning and put on a clean set of clothes. I have the most matted hair because it needs washing and… Read More Christmas season has worn me out already. My car is also adding to the seasonal stress.

I don’t want to be stressing for no reason but I’ve had every test including several pregnancy tests. I don’t want to go too far into personal stuff but my monthlies have been erratic since that night. I worked out my pattern (well as much as I could work out from the varying irregular lengths… Read More I’m so confused intuition is driving me mad.

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