I have felt stuck to my bed all day. The thought of getting up just was too much. I only got up to feed cats and use the toilet. I think that I have a migraine  about to make an appearance too. I can’t be lazy all day because it’s a mess in my flat.… Read More Depression is such a weight today.

There have been many of us from marginalised communities fighting to have our voices heard for many years. This means that being told to keep quiet by even family members is technically ruining all those tiring years of fighting to be heard. Or being punished for trying to be heard (in my own case). I… Read More I will not be silenced! We have fought for our voices to be heard for over a decade!

I will always have depression if I continue living a lie. If I’m not true to myself then things are going to keep literally appearing right in front of my eyes making things glaringly obvious. I don’t like men. I can’t make myself straight however much I try to make myself attracted to men. I… Read More I’m living a lie and I also need justice.

I woke up feeling really rough this morning (well this afternoon if you want to be precise). I definitely know that I’m not going to be a Mother again any time soon because I got another monthly. That’s not a positive sign when half of me got my hopes up that I could have another… Read More Illness is stopping me from doing much 😦 I also feel depressed due to various life issues.

I know that as an autistic I just won’t understand certain things when it comes to others and how they socially function etc. However, I let what happened with a certain person get to me quite a lot. The whole situation has affected my confidence and me as a person. I just can’t get certain… Read More I still cannot understand things and it affects my confidence.

The end of my cold has finally happened but I’ve been left quite tired. I also ache when I cough. I feel a bit down after realising that none of my dads side of the family even bothered to send me a happy birthday message on social media. I’ve probably done something they class as… Read More Tired and still slightly unwell. And, also slightly upset/offended.

I have finally nearly got over my cold but tonight has been a difficult one in regards to what has been on the television. Coronation Street was absolutely heart-wrenching to watch tonight. Sinead’s death after her cruel battle with cancer made us all think of those we’ve lost to those types of illnesses. I lost… Read More Emotional wreck tonight 😥

I’m going to have to change the blog. This is a decision that I’m taking begrudgingly. I will be deleting some posts that have been posted over the past few days. I apologise to those that actually appreciate the current format of the blog. I’m probably going to struggle to conform to the new suggested… Read More I’m having to begrudging change the blog.

The fact that I have a cold/flu type thing really isn’t making today feel pleasant in any way. I feel so much older than 32 today. I’ve taken paracetamol before going out to get important things because I was literally nearly throwing up when I first woke up. I couldn’t get my car out properly… Read More Today doesn’t feel like my birthday….

I have to go to court for the court application to get the unpaid work requirement deleted. I had a nightmare last night because I have automatically gone in to that anxious, frightened mode. In my dream there was a ginger tabby cat laying on a bed that turned into a leech-like snail creature. After… Read More Nightmares 😦 … looks like I’m already subconsciously feeling anxious and scared about tomorrow.