I don’t want to be awake today :(

I don’t want to be awake today because I’m in a lot of pain. I have taken something for it but it isn’t going away. I had to go out to get essentials like milk. I think that I got everything but I couldn’t wait to get back home due to feeling like my insides were stretching constantly. I’m hoping that I feel less crap tomorrow. I get through it by focusing on the fact that it is definitely going to pass in a few days. I haven’t had pain for a long time so this isn’t what I’m used to nowadays. I look like crap today but I really don’t care. I put my hair in a messy bun and my face is a spotty mess in places. I’m comfy laying next to the cat who has decided that she also wants a nap. 

I’m just still disappointed that I didn’t get pregnant but maybe it’s a good thing that I’m not due to certain things which need sorting in my life. I don’t have to rush those things now that things aren’t going to be changing in the near future.