I need justice so badly because…

I’m not able to sleep again. I desperately need justice. I tried to move on but I realise that it isn’t so easy. I’m stressed over the things that are out of my hands. I naturally get infuriated by injustice anyway. This is something I cannot help. I can’t sit back and chill if I see any form of injustice. It  bugs me severely. I can never truly settle. I don’t want to force others to do anything. I just need justice but have to rely on others actions to be able to get it. I can’t cope with lack of sleep caused by frustration and inability to settle. I know that I won’t be able to truly relax and let go until certain things are sorted out. I can’t push others to do their part to help me by doing what needs to be done to get justice. I’m legally not allowed to do that because the restraining order means my hands are effectively tied. I didn’t do what I was accused of doing. There were circumstances that led to a spiralled chain of events. There was too much anger and corruption at the university affecting the situation up until a year ago. I need justice even more since I found out what was going on behind the scenes at the university. I don’t want them to get away with what they did and if things get left the way they currently remain then this means the university has got away with their behaviour. I don’t want the whole blame left on me. I don’t want to be referred to along the lines of stalker when that isn’t what actually happened. I was naïve and poked around a lot because I needed answers at that time. Things got said in anger due to what was going on. I’m not an awful person and I am completely sane despite the amount of times the system has tried to drive me insane.  

2 thoughts on “I need justice so badly because…

  1. Plus the hyper-focus that goes along with being autistic: this is something the courts really need to get to grips with. It doesn’t make autistic people threatening; on the contrary, more often than not makes them very vulnerable. They shouldn’t be additionally vulnerable to wrongful accusations on the basis that autistic behaviour may be perceived as unusual therefore suspicious, unacceptable and tantamount to guilt. A definite non-sequitur but one that seems worryingly commonplace.


    1. Yeah, hyperfocus does leave people vulnerable, for the reasons you’ve said, Vometia.


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