I need a rest but I have to move soon…

I have just got home with my weekly food shop. I walked because the car has got a hole in its water coolant or something around that area. I am having to take it into the garage tomorrow. I am absolutely exhausted but I can’t sit around all day because I need to tidy up my flat. I have put it off long enough. I’m out for most of the day tomorrow due to waiting for the car to be repaired. I also have to go out most of the rest of the week for one thing or another. I woke up exhausted which is why I went back to sleep until midday. I just felt so heavy on top of the tiredness that I couldn’t do anything but sleep for hours. I know I’m not anaemic anymore so there must be something else causing overwhelming tiredness that rapidly. It is like I’m hit by a cloud of heaviness some days. I don’t like it because I have to cancel plans at times. I have to rest for days before I have important plans in case I get hit by this cloud of exhaustion.

I realised the other day that I’m most likely more of a people person than I thought that I was previously. I was talking on the phone the other day and got instant strength that I didn’t have before talking to someone else. I could open the bottle of anti-freeze and water coolant solution. I wasn’t able to do that before talking to another person. I’ve done that kind of thing several times now. I may be less of a single type person than I thought. I may need to be in a relationship or have close friends to be able to access inner strength both emotionally and physically. That’s going to be hard to obtain due to my autism side. I may have to settle for being a single lone weakling.