I cannot settle tonight.

I just cannot settle tonight. I get PTSD symptoms due to things that have happened in my life quite badly at night. I end up reliving everything again and again. I’m tortured constantly by those things. They loop in my head non stop. Even the things that people have said to me continues to rip me apart. I never used to be the type of person who was afraid of everything. I’m very nervous around others now and try to avoid going out to be away from people. I associate being around people with being let down and I only see them as a source of trauma or pain. I cannot move on from the past if I keep getting flashbacks and having nightmares.