This is the truth. I don’t want people I know to keep telling me that I don’t deserve to feel bad and that the other person involved was the awful one. That isn’t right at all. I hassled the other person for over 3 years because I wanted a friend. I didn’t know that it wasn’t the way to be. I said things to the University that I probably shouldn’t have done in anger. This apparently ended up in an investigation into the other person involved. The internet accounts that were the friends of this person only started hassling me because I didn’t take the hint and get lost, plus things I sent to the University via a letter. I said a lot of things in anger that I didn’t mean. I wasn’t aware of how they sounded because I remained angry about everything up until recently.
The other person really didn’t do anything wrong. It’s not right that they’ve lost their job. I was vindictive first because I was angry about things that had happened when I got excluded from the University. I solely blamed the other person. I went for them out of revenge after that happened. I never listened to what they wanted. I only cared that I wanted to be friends. I was controlling and didn’t give a sh*t what they wanted okay. Therefore I deserve to feel horrendous about my part in the situation. It was my fault. I started it… that is the end of story okay. The other person did absolutely nothing wrong. I was an awful person to them. I wouldn’t go away because I wanted to be friends. I thought that I could change their mind by pressuring them but it didn’t work. I was selfish and cruel to them. I deserved the order. I deserved to go to Prison and the endless fines in the case. This is me taking responsibility. I don’t deserve sympathy. I was one hell of a vile b*tch to them. This is the truth so please stop telling me I have no reason to feel the deep guilt that I do at this time.