I have just been in the local shop on my walk. I glanced over to the Newspaper rack (I don’t buy newspapers but I happened to look in that direction). I am trying to teach people to understand difference contending with my own past and headlines in national newspapers such as ‘The Sun’ doesn’t help… Read More Irresponsible reporting by the media

I seem to be at that age where everyone is getting pregnant or have children around me. I am finding it increasingly harder to see these things around me without being negatively emotionally affected. I do feel like I’m missing out but also it’s more that it hurts when I remember that I have a… Read More Babies and Children everywhere at this age!

I had a day full of niggly little things going wrong. They weren’t huge on their own but when they happen one after another I start to feel like I’m fighting a losing battle. I woke up this morning thinking that I had organised everything for the day. It turns out that all the plans… Read More A day of little annoyances…

I can see both perspectives from the Autistic side and the Neurotypical side of the argument. I don’t want to upset anybody but I have found that some of the #actuallyautistic community are quite aggressive to anyone that disagrees with them. I used to be angry if others disagreed with my opinions but now I’m… Read More I’m neutral when it comes to siding with others. I can see both perspectives of this argument.

I wasn’t seeing repeated numbers much for a while but today I saw the number plates 333 DUC, 555 UNN and 444 MDC. This is in the order that I saw the cars with these number plates. I know people think I’m insane with this number thing but I believe that I’m seeing strings of… Read More The number thing has started again 

I can’t even type a blog entry tonight. I just have no ideas whatsoever. I shut my brain down for a rest today and now it’s worked a little too well. I can’t really concentrate on anything. I think I’m just emotionally worn out to the point that my brain isn’t wanting to think. I… Read More Writers block back severely this time 😦

I would appreciate some space. I am aware that people are used to me being online to talk on a daily basis. This is just something I simply cannot do right now. I’m not being mean by ignoring messages. I need my own space and to feel like I’m able to chill out in peace.… Read More This is me right now.

I’m fine on my own. It is far too late for me to get proper help now. I’m starting counselling next week but I’m pretty much given up at this point. I have lost everything in my life that I valued. Most of my life is irreparable. It’s far too late to get everything back… Read More I’m ‘OK’ on my own.

I actually woke up in a depressed mood today. I didn’t have a lot of sleep though because I kept waking up. That is just as bad as not sleeping. I had to get up earlier today due to the plumber coming to service/fix the boiler. I felt like going back to sleep this morning.… Read More Woke up in a depressed mood 

I’ve been not as productive as I’ve made out to people around me this week. I haven’t done half of those things that I’d said I had when asked about it. I did some things but only the absolute minimum. I went for a walk today because I needed to order my medication and get… Read More Faking being productive / horror films have put something in my head now too.