Month: December 2018

  • I’m just nothing.

    I really am convinced that I’m evil and that life is just an uphill struggle. I’ve been exhausted due to being traumatised after everything that has happened to me. I don’t feel like I’ve ever had a rest since everything that has traumatised me. Its just been a case of moving into the next thing.…

  • I changed my mind… unsettled.

    I actually don’t want to stay the night where I am for Christmas Eve. I prefer being at home now.  I’m still insecure when I’m not in my own surroundings. I feel fat and I haven’t even had a massive Christmas dinner yet. I can’t go home now because I’m already changed for bed. I…

  • I’m having a Christmas break.

    I am having a break. This is why I haven’t been online a lot over the last 24 hours. I will be answering any messages after boxing day. I am having ‘me time’ and spending time with family. I am quite tired at the moment. I didn’t post a blog entry last night because I…

  • Depressed and not slept.

    It is almost half 5 in the morning. I haven’t managed to sleep all night. I just couldn’t settle. I also feel really depressed. I am not depressed about Christmas. That will be over in a few days. Christmas doesn’t help but I am extremely depressed due to everything that has happened. I can’t just…

  • It’s difficult being an empath. The feelings are signifying that things are in a terrible state.

    I went over to the local City this evening to have my eyebrows done and do some Christmas Shopping. I start to feel quite guilty for having things in life when I see the amount of homeless on the streets there. I am finding it harder to take what is happening out there as someone…