I can’t sleep because quite honestly I am absolutely fed up of people turning out to be shits. I’m not lying but I don’t have the full facts due to being kept in the dark about everything that has gone on behind my back. I can’t talk to anyone because I’m afraid of getting accused of things. This is why I don’t go out socially. I’m too retarded to know I’m in a dangerous situation which others would see before they got screwed over. I do not feel safe from potential accusations. I don’t even feel safe in my own home now because I have no witnesses in case I get accused of anything. I am very afraid of other people now because of everything that happened. I need to get away from my past and never talk about it again so that I’m not judged negatively. It was a mistake to be so open but I didn’t know that previously. I just want to be alone where no one can hurt me in any way anymore. I’m tired all the time because emotionally most of my life has been extremely difficult. I can never truly rest without nightmares waking me up. I am traumatised but the mental health system doesn’t take any notice of my emerging PTSD symptoms. They don’t even recognise pda type autism. How am I suppose to make progress if the required help isn’t available? I’m stuck in this hole of being traumatised and it’s a living hell.