I really am convinced that I’m evil and that life is just an uphill struggle. I’ve been exhausted due to being traumatised after everything that has happened to me. I don’t feel like I’ve ever had a rest since everything that has traumatised me. Its just been a case of moving into the next thing. That’s caused me more harm because I never got over anything properly. I feel sad and depressed constantly. I haven’t felt properly happy in a long time. I don’t feel like I will ever be truly happy again. I’m just too tired. Others don’t understand how it’s hard to be okay after certain things that have happened. I’m too broken to be repaired. I hate myself.