I’ve had many people comment on the fact that I shouldn’t be depressed because everything is starting to go better for me. It doesn’t change what happened to me. I still have the nightmares and can’t sleep. I’m still denied the help that I keep on asking the system for time and time again. I’m… Read More Depression is not a choice. There is such a word as can’t… that saying was wrong in this modern day system.
I really am convinced that I’m evil and that life is just an uphill struggle. I’ve been exhausted due to being traumatised after everything that has happened to me. I don’t feel like I’ve ever had a rest since everything that has traumatised me. Its just been a case of moving into the next thing.… Read More I’m just nothing.
I actually don’t want to stay the night where I am for Christmas Eve. I prefer being at home now. I’m still insecure when I’m not in my own surroundings. I feel fat and I haven’t even had a massive Christmas dinner yet. I can’t go home now because I’m already changed for bed. I… Read More I changed my mind… unsettled.