Feeling slightly better… managed to get some sleep and chill out a bit.

I got some sleep today. I never saw daylight but at least I slept at some point. I know why I was on edge so much last night and the previous night now. I started my monthly today so that probably explains the anger and how upset I’ve been the previous few days. I have messed up hormones. I should chill out a bit now but leading up to that time I am uptight and could literally start an argument about the smallest thing with anyone. There is a theory that women who are close friends synch when it comes to their monthly cycle. This means they all end up leading up to that point together. It is probably a good thing I don’t have close female friends because there would regularly be a bust up between us if we happened to do that. It is probably better that I seem to have male friends because it is less drama. Males don’t bitch or get into petty arguments. Honestly I cannot ever say I haven’t bitched or got into petty arguments because it’s a natural female flaw. I can’t say that I like that kind of thing though especially as I get older. I’m naturally competitive but I don’t want to be bitchy and petty with it. I’m seriously not much of a competition for anyone any way. I don’t have a vast amount of talent or indeed looks.

I’ve been for a walk and done my exercises today. The walk was quite cold though because the weather isn’t the nicest at the moment. I felt like my hands were ice when I got home. I don’t like wearing gloves because I can’t change the music on my phone. I know that you can get specialist gloves that enable you to do that however I don’t like the feel of them on my hands. It’s a sensory thing. I had a warm Bath when I got home which helped warm me up after I got in from my walk. I could live in the Bath twenty four seven when it’s cold weather. I’m less OCD with being clean than I was a few days ago. I think that was a lot to do with the way my hormones were because I’m not normally someone who is extremely clean and doesn’t like dirt. I’m a lot more chilled now than I’ve been over the last week or so. I don’t think I really am bothered about things that have happened but just fed up of life in general. I’ll never be over what has happened but I just feel stuck at the moment.