I feel so lost at the moment. I just want to sleep constantly because I literally have no energy whatsoever. I’m too depressed do a lot right now. I’m starting to look like a dumpling (one of the disadvantages of lacking height) regardless of how little I eat to control my weight. I saw a carb controlling medication earlier at a decent price. I wouldn’t normally use these types of things but I’ve tried every other option. I can’t believe how my shape has just gone blobby since getting out of Prison. I got skinny in there after a month. I eat less out here and not all Carbs. I’m sure it’s stress because out here I have to do everything myself. The various crap from family. It isn’t my anti depressants due to being on a higher dosage in Prison. I need a structure which starts early in the morning and lasts until at least mid afternoon/evening. I felt better in that routine when I was inside.
I’m always tired so I can’t motivate myself to get up until a stupid hour in the day. I even don’t want to get up even at that point but I have to get things done which can’t be left not done. I have to do everything because I live on my own. I don’t get the support that I’m suppose to receive so I have to do everything when I’m not as tired. I am going to have to go to see a solicitor about the 117 section aftercare funds that I’m supposed to have to pay for support in the new year. If I want to get anything then the only option is for me to go down the legal route.