I have an important piece of advice to those that feel that acting out will get them the help that they need after going the GP and asking services fail. Before things went wrong with my son I had been to see the GP about feeling Depressed. I was sent away with anti depressants. I was brushed off before I finally got overwhelmed and crumbled. I wasn’t given any form of support until after my son was adopted but this wasn’t mental health help. The services refused to help me so that they could have grounds for taking my son for adoption. At University I went to different parts of the campus services to try to get the help as well as my GP at the time. I was refused mental health help and what I did get traumatised me. Then the University kicked me out. I said those things to the tutor after that happened because I wanted the help. I had to say something that I knew they couldn’t ignore. Something that I knew would wind them up on a personal level. Instead of getting the mental health help I needed the Police got involved.
I’ve said things to Tutors and various other Professionals around me to get mental health treatment but I get punished every time. I was in an ATU as a teenager. I am however traumatised by my experiences. I’ve lived with nightmares for many years thinking that they’d go away but they haven’t yet. I have PTSD like symptoms triggered by something as simple as a smell or a sound. The system has traumatised me. Although the system will never admit to being responsible for that trauma. I don’t think I’ll ever get the help. I’ve tried to take an overdose a few years ago. I have made myself get into trouble so many times because of being traumatised. I can’t do anything else. It’s too late for me but I hope that the youngsters growing up with similar conditions don’t ever end up being left in the same position. I am too tired to even try anymore.