Day: November 23, 2018

I have been suffering with my cold all day but I’m not rising to other peoples crap. I had a troll leave a comment on here today calling themselves yourdestroyer. They said that I was going to basically be destroyed because of what I did to the tutor at Uni. Telling me that they were glad that I got kicked out. And that they’d make sure that I got what was coming to me. Instead of rising to any attempts to wind me up. I am now logging any messages that I get sent my way. I’m prepared to take legal action if I need to go down that road. I refuse to get punished again for reacting towards other people’s nastiness.

I’m not reacting. I am trying to raise awareness of Pathological Demand Avoidance  for myself and the future generations that may go through experiences similar to mine due to others not understanding and reacting to things which upset them. I honestly didn’t want the other person involved with the Uni situation to be dismissed from their job. Those that know me will back me up at how awful I felt when I found out. I found it hard to sleep for a few weeks. I had to go on medication to be able to settle. I had people close to me telling me it was karma after what happened but that was no comfort to me. Whoever commented please be aware that your VPN is not covering exactly where you’re posting from. If I gave evidence over to the police you’d be easily traceable.

I’ll not think twice about going to report trolling and there are new laws now stating that those that troll can be prosecuted. If you really want to be part of something positive you can post about PDA and write to your local MP to try to get this form of Autism approved in the UK. This will get those that need the support for PDA the help they need and prevent unpleasant situations which has occurred. Things don’t have to stay the way they are now. We can fight for the support those of us with PDA need and nothing negative has to happen ever again. I still care about the other person. I don’t feel good about what happened. I have to live with that guilt and how it affects me without others getting involved. 

I think it’s hard to escape the knowledge that it is Black Friday today. The adverts on television were either for Black Friday or Christmas tonight. I feel like our society has become too materialistic. It’s all about having objects. I see no one giving a damn about others any more. Caring about people within our society has gone completely out of the window and been replaced with some crazy notion that possessions make us who we are to the point where they matter the most. I think it is sad. It seems that no one thinks about each other anymore. I have clothing that I’ve had for many years. I don’t go out to replace things until I have truly worn out a piece of clothing or footwear. I have a pair of Jeans from when I was a teenager and a thick coat which is great for the cold winters from back then. They still are okay and I like them so I see no point in updating my wardrobe when I see deals on things like Black Friday and Christmas. I need more slippers because they’re falling apart but I’m not going to keep buying items of clothing unless I’m replacing bits that are falling apart.

I just feel like society has gone passed the point of return when it comes to attitudes that it has adopted. There are individuals trying to be materialistically better off than each other. Eventually it becomes about who spends more on a higher specification car or some other large purchase. These are supposedly fully grown adults but their actions seem quite immature. I will buy something if I like or need it. I’m not going to ever buy something just because it’s more expensive or a better quality than someone else purchased. This will just lead people into a spiralling never ending circle of stress having to keep the behaviour going long term to try to outdo each others purchases. As I say every year when it comes to Black Friday and Christmas… don’t be fooled by these deals or discounts because money is getting harder to obtain either through working or the welfare system (if you’re not able to work because of a medical condition). It will only leave you in a financial mess if you start participating in a lot of these discount sales.

Brexit is breaking the country (UK for our international readers) and we can’t be sure that after our exit bill there will be enough left to support us as British citizens (NHS etc). This country is already technically in debt which is why it’s clawing back as much as it possibly can get from those that have to rely on the welfare state. We can’t trust our system to financially support us. We have to be careful with our money. Save a bit from every payment just in case. I did this when I knew that Disability Living Allowance was ending because I knew Personal Independence Payment was probably going to deny me under the new criteria unless it went to appeal which takes months.