Probation appointment irritations. The system doesn’t do things logically.

I had an appointment with my probation officer today. I get annoyed with how the system has a certain attitude. I’ve been told to revise my statement for the application to remove the unpaid work requirement order. They agreed with every point I made about what I’ve previously mentioned on here. Apart from questioning the victims statements after the news that they’d lost their job at the University was announced. Apparently it will get the magistrates back up because they won’t think I’m remorseful and I have to do things in stages because that is how the legal system works. I wish that we could just cut the crap and go straight for the whole points.

There should be less faffing around. People just need to say it exactly what they are too afraid to say. I’m starting to drill this aspect into the Autistic community after years of being told I’m not doing it right. It’s taken me a decade to get others to wake up. I’ve got into a lot of trouble, lost my son and emotionally ended up quite damaged due to everything. I have constantly made personal sacrifices. I would love something back or at least attitudes to change. And I’m certainly not showing full remorse for actions against a person who has proven to be over sensitive. I’m not taking responsibility for their sensitivities. In law it actually states that a person cannot be held accountable for a person more sensitive than what the ‘normal range’ is said to be. I’m sick and get a migraine when I’m stressed. I cannot hold anyone responsible for that because it’s not classed as the average reaction to stress. Unless you’re directly linked with causation then legally no one else is liable for reactions of a person if they have a particular sensitivity.

I have psychologically studied the other person involved for a few years via online posts. The conclusion I’ve made is that they have serious personality disorder when it comes to taking things as a personal insult. They also have a bullying and manipulative side to their nature. I’m not prepared to take responsibility for their issues. I’m determined to clear my name at some point. I’m not going to give up fighting to do that. Also I have ultimately paid £900 in fines by the time the last £150 has been paid in January (counting both courts and victim fines). I’m determined to reclaim that money because after everything it’s what I feel is justice. Also, I’m virtually living on barely anything due to benefit cuts so reclaiming that money and more for emotional distress will be helpful financially to me.