I have just finished watching Bridget Jones’ Baby. The film where she has a baby and finally gets married to the guy that she had been on and off with for years. I really shouldn’t watch these films because my reality is never going to be that way and it’s depressing. It’s something I know I will never have because of my disability. I’m not marriage material due to my disability traits. I’ve tried to have a child and the system took it using my disability as an excuse. Half of me wants the marriage and child happily ever after thing but the logical half of me tells me I’m not made for all that. I don’t want any more let downs and I can’t guarantee that a person won’t leave me because my disability affects annoy them. I wish that I could believe otherwise but this has always been the case.