Again, it is that time of the month when I’m bloated and cranky. I get sweaty even when it’s not this hot weather. I’m just so fed up. I normally go for a walk but I just want to do as little as possible. I still have to do a bit of my housework but… Read More Hormones 😦 / Maturity is changing my views (seeing my condition more clearly now).
I did this art therapy picture last night. The details took me such a long time. I really can’t do anymore because I can’t afford to procrastinate any longer. I haven’t done anything else I should be doing. The fact that I have a Maths exam in a fortnight and know I haven’t revised enough… Read More More Art Therapy colouring and I really have to stop procrastinating. Plus a few signs that I’m maturing.
I am so fed up of struggling. I managed to get some sleep. I just cannot exist this way any longer. I’m barely eating because I get too down to eat. I don’t want to gain weight either because if I’m not walking so much that will happen. I don’t sleep much especially at night.… Read More I don’t want to exist anymore. Medication addiction is a huge issue too at the moment.
I’m quite tired so this may not read right. I haven’t slept well in a while. I need a break but I don’t want a break. I know that sounds contradictory but it’s how I feel. I’m not sure that I can ever attempt to hold down a job if I do manage to obtain… Read More I know what I need, but it’s not what I want.
I didn’t end up going to the community centre today because all I felt like doing was sleeping. It doesn’t help when you’ve got two cats who want to snuggle up with you while you’re sleeping because it’s even harder to get out of bed. I’ve not even been for a proper walk in two… Read More I tried my best but depression beat me today. Been working on artwork as therapy (picture attached).
I had my landline ring about twice at a few minutes to 2 this morning. I rang 1471 and the last call didn’t even register, which meant that I wasn’t able to retrieve any data on that last call. I then started browsing the internet and it said spirits can do that and leave no… Read More The freaky shit has to stop okay.
I am no longer being helped by the anti depressants that I’m on. They did at first but the route cause of my depression is still bugging me and no medication is going to change that. I felt so low this morning. I wasn’t able to get out of bed until mid afternoon. I’m up… Read More The causes of my depression are not tackled by medication.
I managed to catch the news earlier. They keep bringing stalking up and increasing the measures that they’re taking to bring people to justice before people get murdered etc. May I remind them that the reason the laws I got caught up in due to my disability issues were amended previously in the 90s to… Read More There is going to be a witch hunt of innocent people (those with disabilities not those that deserve it) if we proceed in certain ways. These proposals will not be practical or safe for certain groups of people.
I’m always awake because of the same things that bug me. It’s annoying me now so I am just going to come out with it. I’ve had enough of others seeing me as the awful one. I was let down. I wish I’d never reacted to certain things but at the time I was in… Read More Things that keep me awake.
As the Fifa world cup is one of the events currently going on, this gave me the title for this entry because that is along the lines of how I’m feeling. Those that know me will be well aware that I haven’t been out in any social capacity for at least 2 years. I was… Read More Em – 1, Social Anxiety – 0